The Downside of My life!

Sometimes I feel more alone in a crowded room than I do when I sit by myself listening to music. There is something about music that soothes the soul. It can take you back to a time when you may have been hurting but you now know that the pain you endured was what made you the person you are today. Be that, good or bad. I have made many acquaintances in my life, but only a handful of people whom I truly consider to be my friends. I know that little insignificant choices that I have made in the past have altered my present. I often wonder, if I could go back and change one thing in my life what would it be? Maybe I would repair a relationship with a former love, or take things more seriously so that I could have achieved more in life by now, perhaps I could have exercised and eaten a proper diet. No, because those were my mistakes and I made them happen. It could be that I have a self-destructive nature, any time things seem to be going my way I find a way to stop the progress and regress back to a lower point than I started from. A lot of people feel bad because they don’t have the skills to do anything better with their lives. But, the worst feeling in the world is to know that you were given the skills and yet you still chose to squander them.